19 Nov

It took a while, practically 10 years worth, to finally take back my mind, my body and ultimately, my self as a whole complete being. Now I’m not saying I’m perfect by far, what I’m saying is the following. I learned that one can in an essence, “heal” from PTSD. Tho the word heal in and of itself means to be completely rid of something negative, I’ve learned…..

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26 Sep

Now and Later

     ‘Wow so time can fly by!’

Pretty much everyone says that expression and experiences the feeling from time to time.  When PTSD occurs inside the brain, a part of the structure is damaged and the time stamp that is normally attached to memories are missing. I experience this weekly tho daily it can seem.  My loved ones can very easily get irritated.

‘Mom, that was last week not yesterday.’

‘O,’ I would think…..

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26 Sep

The Essence of PTSD : Song, ‘Zombie’ by The Cranberries

“Violence causes silence…”

“In your head they are fighting… crying… still fighting… dying.”

“…breaking heart taking over…”

     This song depicts the actualization of some struggles with PTSD.  Trauma occurs then many try to forget about it, brushing it off like nothing happened or becoming silent about it like this song says.  But our brain remembers.  It remembers the sensations and emotions of the incident like it’s…..

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09 May

All that’s in a day mundane tasks others light the way Trying to do right can drain make one lay Beside the choices to ponder then let reveal The light of reality tho seems dreary a monstrous deal Right is right- The way, truth justice heartbreak and tears Why can’t 4 have a happy ending no fears Because each path chosen, choices made Heads each to their destiny, proper cloud or blade According to what’s weaved by thine will and hands…..

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25 Jan

Two and a half years later still going strong in the right direction, slower than molasses dripping from a tap in a maple tree it seems at times but none the less, still improving.  After My course in a PTSD program, I returned home and the real work began.  Making the right decisions for your sons well being, your health and your collective future sometimes is a series of maneuvers that take a lot of contemplation.  Having a healthy mind…..

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16 Sep

stock-photo-75916039-tribal-looking-woman-s-silhouette-with-leaves-overlaying-the-imageWhere I’ve Been The Last 2 Years: The End Of A Downward Spiral

I’ve been struggling for the past seven years to gain control over something that had complete control over me and ultimately every aspect of my life traumatizing my loved ones in the wake of my unbridled lifestyle. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or PTSD I was told “Was in my head,” although technically that…..

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01 Jan

free-1489507  Most often people think of a “New Year’s Promise” as an assertion that depicts progression and gain but what if it is considered just an outlook or perspective.  Have you had New Year’s Resolutions fail miserably in the past because I know I have!  I am now claiming this statement for an undaunted chance for new beginnings.  The future holds boundless opportunities to…..

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20 Nov

With the holidays approaching I’d like to say I’m so thankful for God, my family and friends- for all their love and support.  The sum of my essence wouldn’t be as sweet as it is without them.

Still in awe with each passing moment

That you so willingly did an atonement,

For so undeserving I may be,

You said it’s no matter, for you paid the fee.

-Excert from Incessant Love

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11 Nov

  forblog2*Today, let’s remember and honor those who gave a special part of themselves for so many people who will never really know exactly what those individuals, as soldiers, went through.

     My book “A Drill Sergeant’s Fame” helps to expound on the different facets of this theme. In particular, my poem Irony within A Combat Bunker tells a story contrasting two different viewpoints. One being from…..

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07 Nov

My name is Kimberly Mae, author of “A Drill Sergeant’s Fame.” I’m delighted to have you as a visitor to my blog about my new book. This project is very special to me and1stblogpic1 I hope to share some of that excitement with you here.

     My incentive for creating the book, “A Drill Sergeant’s Fame,” came after I had written most of my poems. A friend…..

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